This is the point

I don't think I'll be able to breathe normally until this is all over.... I just keep waiting for something *else* to go wrong. Don't get me wrong, I love my wedding and everything that's going into it, but it's like every time I turn around, something gets changed or I have to give up something to make something else work. Plus, I'm just surrounded by drama, and it's just wearing me down. I'm just ready for it to be May.

For instance, today, we cut out the Thursday night activity for the guys... because FI has a little brother (11 years old) the original plan was for the grown-ups to go to a stripper club on Thursday, and then the *actual* bachelor party (when his brother could join) would be Friday afternoon, when they all would go play mini-golf. This would also alleviate some tension between everyone and everyone could have a good time. Well, it's looking like none of the guys are going to be here until (at earliest) Thursday afternoon, if not later that night. If anything, they absolutely have to be here Friday morning for the rehearsal.

I know, in my heart (and my head), that this is a reallllllly stupid thing to get upset over, but when one thing starts to get messed up, and then another, and another, even the little things will stress you out.

So, I think I'm to the point where the next time something gets changed or has to be sacrificed, I will probably go insane.... or maybe, just maybe, it won't phase me?